The morning wakes eerie rose behind a thick cloak of gray today, a red morning rising, predicting the storms to come later, I suppose. The heat has been relentless here of late; it is hard to breathe when even the…
Break
I remember now, the way I woke up the morning after the never. I remember how I wanted to throw up, how the tears wouldn’t stop. I remember wondering how I would ever live again. I remember the words that…
Speak
I have hard things to say. I have hard things to live. Then the word of the LORD came to me, saying: “ Before I formed you in the womb I knew you; Before you were born I sanctified you;…
End
People talk about coming to the end of yourself. I’ve talked about it myself. I’ve been there and back, and I’ve half a God-desire to live there all the time, because that is where humility lives, in that deepest place…
Odd Grace
It has been the oddest sort of day. It’s that “odd” that comes when my skin starts to fit again after two weeks of out-of-body living, when fears that held me down reveal themselves unrealized, when things that don’t make…
Absent
I watch the news, talk to my family and friends; I want to fold up with sorrow. Tornadoes whipping across the Midwest. An active hurricane season predicted for the fall. Earthquakes, tidal waves, floods. Accidents, cancer, death. I feel as…
Vagueries
Sometimes I choose silence because I love, sometimes because it is forced, but there are times I have to speak in cloak and vagueries about what goes on in this restless heart. Today is one of those days, when I…
Blur
It is nice having a place where it’s okay to ramble again without guilt or pressure. I fully intend to leave this space quiet some days. It’s a free spot. A place where I can pretty much do what I…
Prayer.
She stands beside me and sets up her project, grabbing at my arm, pointing out what she needs, fussing petulantly. I am finishing something I am doing, thinking that a good mom would simply meet the need without being asked,…