My Eternal King My God, I love Thee, not because I hope for heaven thereby, Nor yet because who love Thee not must die eternally. Thou, O my Jesus, Thou didst me upon the cross embrace; For me didst bear…
Blue
On the one hand, I know who and what I am. I think I have come to grips with my human capacity for change. I say what I think and think the way I speak. But on the other hand,…
Effect
They call it the “Kelly effect,” my friends who want to take photos like mine. They watch me work to see what I’m doing and squeal over meeting me because they have seen my work. They don’t know the other…
Destitute
A brief preface: I’m sorting through a lot of things about God and my faith and church and grace. This post is not aimed at anyone – it is written from my journey, from this place in my journey. If…
Places
It was rumoring autumn in New England last week when we visited Pete’s parents. The Japanese maple in his old back yard was tinting more red than usual, and one evening while we were there, we could smell wood smoke…
Hold
Sometimes you are given a gift that you don’t know how to accept. You don’t know how to receive it, because you don’t know the depths of your own heart, and the little you do know leads you to believe…
Reach
I went into the hospital in June of 2004 with a herxheimer reaction that ended for me any questions that I might not really be sick. I was having convulsions and I couldn’t stand up, let alone walk. I was…
Settled
I mentioned panic and anxiety attacks on Monday. I asked a friend to pray for me. She asked another friend, who stepped in strong on my behalf yesterday. I told the truth; they spoke it back. There is no feeling…
Unplug
Today has not exactly been a good day. It has not exactly been a bad day. Or maybe it has been horrible. Or spectacular. I think that the technical word for my state today is “stir-crazy.” I feel like I’m…
More
Pete says he sees a change. He says I’m doing better. I do see a little more energy here, a little faster movement there. My brain is a little clearer than it has been. But this week has been hard…